Lately it seems
that every Friday afternoon I feel beat down by life, work, people,
etc. This feeling usually makes me want to either go home and sleep or
go out and find something to make me forget the past 40+ Hour work
week.
But
something happened yesterday making me change my perspective on my
situation. I had the feeling when my husband said, "Hey, just listen
to the words."
He
set my iPod to a song and hit play. I had heard the song a million
times before and he in fact used to have it on his myspace page as the
only song for months (driving everyone crazy). He used to say it
worked for him, but I guess I needed to feel that same exhaustion and
oppressive helplessness to actually HEAR the words for the first time.
VULTURES - JOHN MAYER
Some of us, We're hardly ever here
The rest of us, we're born to disappear
How do I stop myself from
Being just a number
How will I hold my head
To keep from going under
Down to the wire
I wanted water but
I'll walk through the fire
If this is what it takes
To take me even higher
Then I'll come through
Like I do
When the world keeps
Testing me, testing me,testing me
How did they find me here
What do they want from me
All of these vultures hiding
Right outside my door
I hear them whisperin
They're tryin to ride it out
They've never gone this long
Without a kill before
Down to the wire
I wanted water but
I'll walk through the fire
If this is what it takes
To take me even higher
Then I'll come through
Like I do
When the world keeps
Testing me, testing me, testing me
Wheels up
I got to leave this evening
Can't seem to shake these vultures
Off of my trail
Power is made, by power being taken
So I keep on running
To protect my situation
Down to the wire
I wanted water but
I'll walk through the fire
If this is what it takes
To take me even higher
Then I'll come through
Like I do
When the world keeps
Testing me, testing me
Oooooooooooo
Oooooooooooo
Oooooooooooo
Oooooooooooo
Whatcha gonna do about it
Whatcha gonna do about it
Whatcha gonna do about it
Don't give up give up
Don't give up give up give up
Don't give up give up
Don't give up give up give up
YEAH...So
that's it. All in one song. I can't let these temporary discomforts
or problems keep me down. I have to find a way through them so that I
can get to where I actually want to be. If I stay stuck, then I'll
just drown and the vultures will get me.
I
can't let that happen. The world will continue to test me to see if my
resolve will falter. What happens when it does? The world won't care,
but I will. And for that, the fight will continue.
I really love my husband for making me feel better. He always knows how to make me see the world through different lenses.
I also thank John Mayer for getting me out of my self pity.
This is now my Friday Afternoon Pick-Me-Up, or any day I feel the "woah-is-me-s" trying to take over.
It may not be your anthem, but it will be mine.
