It's no secret to anyone who knows me well that I am a Twilight fanatic and I'm not ashamed of my illogical devotion either. I know I am not a teenage girl falling in love for the first time, but all girls remember what it was like. All girls fantasized about finding their perfect someone just for them. Someone hopelessly devoted to only them who made the world spin and created a place that was theirs within the chaos of normal existence. Someone who made them feel less awkward about themselves and saw the true person inside without judgment. It's a nice feeling to have and that's exactly what Twilight does for me. Granted, I didn't actually find my "Edward" until I met my husband, but once you do meet that person, the book feels as if it was written by you somehow. My devotion started after my birthday last August when I received the books as gifts. I had been living under an oblivious rock before that. The last book, Breaking Dawn was being released and I saw the promotional stuff at all stores. I saw Facebook buttons about Edward kicking Angel & Spike's asses, or even Chuck Norris'. I started paying attention to media reports about the movie still in production. Me being a person who knows their own fascination with Vampires, I was intrigued and couldn't ignore it any longer. I put the series on my Amazon wish list and the rest is history.
While reading the books (multiple times) or listening to the audiobooks in the car (YES I did do all of this...don't judge me!), I would start to listen to music and find myself relating songs to feelings I'd have when I read the story. From that came the urgent need to make a playlist. At first it was going to be one playlist per book, but in the end it became three separate feelings that resonated throughout the series.
~CONFLICTED~
~HEARTBREAK~
~LOVE~
~HEARTBREAK~
~LOVE~
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CONFLICTED
So much of the series is about inner turmoil, struggle, and life altering decisions. For that reason, this is my favorite of the three playlists because questions and doubts are what gives us our humanity. It's not about the destination; it's about the journey. It's knowing what someone went through to be happy. Everyone wants to be happy and we all fight life to ensure we find our own peace. The characters of Twilight are no different, regardless if they aren't all human.
HEARTBREAK
There is some serious heartbreak in this series. I think it also cuts even deeper if you have known heartbreak in your own life. I will say the way Stephenie wrote New Moon angered me at first because I lost all that made me love the book and I cried over every word and those single four blank pages with the months displayed. That emptiness made me feel empty and like Bella, it was really hard to move on. It took a second read to appreciate New Moon. What kind of story leaves Edward absent for 376 pages? But, he never really left. However, we needed that pain to understand the love. I know in real life, going back to someone who broke my heart never ended well, but they weren't Edward so her choices make sense. Because pain is so universal, this playlist is the longest.
LOVE
This one is easy...when there is a love that bonds two people together, nothing can break them apart. They make misguided choices thinking they are doing what's best for each other, but it's because they love so much they think they are protecting one another. They forgive and compromise. They find balance and strength. They nurture each other and become more complete; never knowing they were previously fractured. They simply Love.
CONFLICTED
So much of the series is about inner turmoil, struggle, and life altering decisions. For that reason, this is my favorite of the three playlists because questions and doubts are what gives us our humanity. It's not about the destination; it's about the journey. It's knowing what someone went through to be happy. Everyone wants to be happy and we all fight life to ensure we find our own peace. The characters of Twilight are no different, regardless if they aren't all human.
*Not available in Playlist.com database
- Dawn of the Dead - Does It Offend You Yeah
- In the Sun - Joseph Arthur
- Blah Blah Blah - Say Hi (To Your Mom)
- I Want You Now - Depeche Mode
- Wrong - Everything But the Girl
- Delicate - Damien Rice
- I'm Making Eyes At You - Black Kids
- Condemnation - Depeche Mode
- How Would I Know - Melissa Etheridge
- Saturday - Chris Garneau*
- In Harms Way - Face to Face*
- Back from the Dead - Babyshambles
- Power in the Blood - Black Kids*
- I Love You - Sarah McClachlan
- The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars
- Golden Train - Justin Nozuka
- Drive - The Cars
- Love, Love, Love - The Organ
- Over My Head - The Fray
- Walk Away - Ben Harper
- Call It Off - Tegan and Sara
- Sea - George Winston
- Dying is Fine - Ra Ra Riot
- Up Against the Wall - Peter Bjorn & John
- It Doesn't Matter - Depeche Mode
- Sweet Sweet Heartkiller - Say Hi (To Your Mom)
- Warning Sign - Coldplay
- Read My Mind - The Killers
- Fear - Sarah McClachlan
- King of Pain - The Police
- Last Goodbye - Jeff Buckley
- Happy - Ned's Atomic Dustbin
- Float On - Ben Lee (Modest Mouse cover)
- Human - Human League
- First Love - Adele
- Hanging by a Moment - Lifehouse
- This Woman's Work - Kate Bush
- Into the Ocean - Blue October
- Burden - Face to Face*
- (Forever) Live and Die - OMD
- A Question of Lust - Depeche Mode
- Black Eyes - Snowden
- She Just Happens to Date the Prince of Darkness - Say Hi (To Your Mom)
- According to the Plan - I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness
- Little Motel - Modest Mouse
- Suffer Well - Depeche Mode
- Staring at the Sun - TV on the Radio
- Bizarre Love Triangle - Charlotte Martin (New Order cover)*
- Freakish - Saves the Day
- Patience - Guns N' Roses
- No Ordinary Love - Sade
HEARTBREAK
There is some serious heartbreak in this series. I think it also cuts even deeper if you have known heartbreak in your own life. I will say the way Stephenie wrote New Moon angered me at first because I lost all that made me love the book and I cried over every word and those single four blank pages with the months displayed. That emptiness made me feel empty and like Bella, it was really hard to move on. It took a second read to appreciate New Moon. What kind of story leaves Edward absent for 376 pages? But, he never really left. However, we needed that pain to understand the love. I know in real life, going back to someone who broke my heart never ended well, but they weren't Edward so her choices make sense. Because pain is so universal, this playlist is the longest.
*Not available in Playlist.com database
- Spiralling - Erasure*
- Send the Pain Below - Chevelle
- Ghost in You - Counting Crows (Psychedelic Furs cover)
- Black - Pearl Jam
- Ghost Under Rocks - Ra Ra Riot
- One More Try - George Michael
- You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol
- Somewhere Out There - Our Lady Peace
- Epiphany - Staind
- Bullet Proof...I Wish I Was - Radiohead
- Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
- You Lied - Face to Face
- I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance
- November Rain - Guns N' Roses
- By My Side - INXS
- Ooh Child - Beth Orton (Nina Simone cover)
- Hurt - Nine Inch Nails
- Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
- I Grieve - Peter Gabriel*
- Why - Annie Lenox*
- Walking Wounded - Everything But the Girl
- A Thousand Hours - The Cure
- Quiet - Rachael Yamagata
- From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to Mars
- The New - Interpol
- Wrecking Ball - Interpol
- Each Year - Ra Ra Riot
- Trust - The Cure
- When I Needed You - Erasure
- Como Dueles En Los Labios - Mana (As Lips Hurts)
- Lover's Spit (Redux) - Broken Social Scene
- Sad News - Chris Garneau*
- I Can't Make You Love Me - George Michael (Bonnie Raitt cover)
- Goodbye You - Craig Lyons*
- The Rip - Portishead
- Displaced - Azure Ray
- All I Need - Radiohead
- Keepsake - State Radio
- Wishing (if I Had a Photograph of You) - Flock of Seagulls
- Your House - Jimmy Eat World
- Winter '05 - Ra Ra Riot* (sadly, the song that inspired all the Twilight playlists)
- Bad - U2
- Everybody Hurts - Ty Taylor (REM cover)*
- Dreaming With a Broken Heart - John Mayer
- Close Your Eyes (Buffy/Angel Love Theme) - Buffy the Vampire Slayer
- Slipped Away - Avril Lavigne
- I Wanted You to Feel the Same - The Radio Dept.
- Sleep - Azure Ray
- Don't You Want Me - Human League
- Wish You Were Here - Marty Casey (Pink Floyd cover)
- On My Own - Stellastarr*
- I Miss You - Blink-182
- One More Time - The Cure
- Superstar/Until You Come Back To Me - Luther Vandross
- Out There - Dinosaur Jr.
- Breakdown - Melissa Etheridge
- Si Tu No Vuelves - Miguel Bose (If You Don't Return)
- Where Does the Good Go - Tegan and Sara
- Ex Factor - Lauren Hill
- With or Without You - U2*
- Anniversary of an Uninteresting Day - Deftones
- Sunday - Cranberries
- I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie
LOVE
This one is easy...when there is a love that bonds two people together, nothing can break them apart. They make misguided choices thinking they are doing what's best for each other, but it's because they love so much they think they are protecting one another. They forgive and compromise. They find balance and strength. They nurture each other and become more complete; never knowing they were previously fractured. They simply Love.
*Not available in Playlist.com database
- First Time Ever I Saw Your Face - Roberta Flack
- I Will Always - Cranberries
- Tulips - Bloc Party
- Your Love Means Everything to Me, Pt. 2 - Faultline (feat. Chris Martin / Coldplay)
- Till Kingdom Come - Coldplay
- Lullaby - Dixie Chicks
- Open Arms - Journey
- Breathe Me - Sia
- Somebody - Depeche Mode
- Crayon - Caribou*
- Lost - Anouk
- Everlong - Foo Fighters
- I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
- Angel - Aerosmith
- Angels and Darlas - Say Hi (To Your Mom)
- Halo - The Cure
- Give You My Lovin' - Mazzy Star
- The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice
- LIke You'll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys
- Hard to Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers
- Heartbeats - Jose Gonzales (The Knife cover)
- Wild Horses - The Sundays (Rolling Stones cover)
- Love Song #3 - Me'Shell Ndegeocello
- Anywhere - The Presets
- I Found a Reason - Cat Power (Velvet Underground cover)
- Wonderwall - Oasis
- More than Words - Extreme
- Breathe - Angels & Airwaves
- Beautiful - Me'Shell Ndegeocello
- The Perfect Kiss - New Order
- I Could Die For You - Red Hot Chili Peppers
- Into the Mystic - Van Morrison*
- Sleep - Melissa Etheridge
- The Chills - Peter Bjorn & John
- Blue Light - Bloc Party
- For Me This is Heaven - Jimmy Eat World
- Not Enough Time - INXS
- Gorecki - Lamb
- But Not Tonight - Scott Weiland (Depeche Mode cover)
- So Here We Are - Bloc Party
- Kissing You (Love Theme from Baz Lurhmann's Romeo & Juliet) - Romeo & Juliet
- Sea of Love - Cat Power (Phil Phillips cover)
- Everything - Lifehouse
- Only You - Yaz
- Big Big Love (Fig. 2) - Foals
- Never Tear Us Apart - INXS
- Ion Square - Bloc Party
I love your obsession and I'm jealous because I love LOVING something that much. I think the story is brilliant. I love the conflicts too. I love that it's about young love. I still watch Footloose yearly. I'll always love Ren. :) He's my Edward! Ha ha!!! Ooooh, Kevin Bacon would have been such a GOOD Edward in his youth!!!! Even now, he should totally play a vampire. He should have been in Interview with the Vampire!
and I LOVE the idea of making a playlist for a book! That's brilliant Diane!
I make playlists anytime I feel inspired (why I have so many). They are snippets of my life at a time and I name them appropriately so I can easily recall what I was doing at the time.
I made another playlist for a "book". It was for Twilight fanfiction, called Wide Awake. It's been said to be the book Stephenie Meyers should have written...ouch. It's total alternate universe, but sooooo good. Here's the link if you're ever interested: http://angstgoddess003.livejournal.com/
Oh my God Diane! Wow. This is awesome! I love everything that you wrote. And every word of it is so true. I've heard certain songs that would remind me of the books, but this is incredible! I think my jaw dropped when I started reading it...I love it!
PS. Just lastnight I was thinking that I should get the audio (since the darn ad pops up 24/7 on FB-how could I not want it!) and just listen to it whenever I felt like it, just because I can!
Tiffany,
Thanks so much for your kind words.
(Don't tell anyone, but I got the audiobooks off of bit torrent; otherwise, they're pretty pricey compared to the books - hint hint). They're a little weird because it's all narrated by a girl, but you forget that after a while.
You art is in painting, mine is writing, music appreciation, & dance. =)
Diane